How do I believe in God again after disappointment?

There’s a kind of silence that hurts differently.

The kind that comes after you’ve prayed, fasted, believed…

and still didn’t get the answer you were hoping for.

If we’re honest, this is where many of us quietly struggle.

Because what do you do when you’ve done everything “right”

and nothing changes?

What do you do when you’ve trusted God for a job, a home, healing…

or something deeply personal like your genotype…

and it stays the same?

I’ve been there.

And if I’m being completely honest,

there are moments where I’ve felt… not chosen.

Like maybe God chose not to come through for me.

Like maybe my prayers weren’t enough.

But in those quiet, uncomfortable moments,

there’s one truth I keep coming back to:

God knows the end from the beginning.

Even when I don’t understand.

Even when it hurts.

Even when it feels like silence.

I’ve had to learn something difficult… but freeing:

Sometimes, when God doesn’t give me what I asked for,

it’s not rejection, it’s protection.

Because God sees what I cannot see.

He knows what that thing might cost me.

He knows the weight it might carry.

He knows if it could pull me away from Him,

from purpose, from peace.

And so my prayer has changed.

Not just:

“Lord, give me this.”

But:

“Lord, if this thing will cost me my soul, my peace,

or my place with You… I don’t want it.”

That kind of prayer shifts everything.

Because then, disappointment stops feeling like loss…

and starts feeling like divine redirection.

But let’s be honest

that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt.

There are still moments I question.

Moments I remember my dad.

Moments I wish things had gone differently.

I remember a time I felt the Holy Spirit nudging me:

“Call him tonight… you won’t hear from him again.”

And I brushed it off.

And then… it happened.

That kind of experience stays with you.

But even in that pain, one thing remains constant:

God is still God.

He doesn’t stop being God because life didn’t go the way I wanted.

He is the same in joy.

The same in loss.

The same in waiting.

The same in silence.

And maybe that’s the heart of it all:

We don’t come to God just because of what He can give us.

We come to Him because of who He is.

Because long before our prayers,

our desires,

our expectations…

There was love.

A love so deep that He gave everything for us.

So if you’re in that place right now

disappointed, tired, questioning…

You’re not alone.

And your faith is not broken.

You’re just in a moment where belief has to go deeper than results.

So today, my prayer for you is this:

May you find peace in what you don’t understand.

May you trust God even when it hurts.

And may you remember

His love for you has never changed.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.t

Happy Good Friday 

Jesus baby, Ayo