Make it Obvious or Don't

"I don’t know what this is anymore, but let's call it friendship."

I’m having the best time, the kind that consumes, but softly. No matter how I try, I can never explain it.

I knew I was romantic before I met you, but with you. I’m discovering new ways of feeling, thinking, and creating.

It’s both confusing and beautiful.

You bring out my creative side. You stretch me. You make me think differently.

And I know I said I wasn’t going to write, not about us, not this time. I was just going to let it breathe.

But I can’t help myself. I'm Addicted!!!!!

There’s just something about you that’s unsettling, in the best way.

And so, here I am again.

Words have found me, and here we go.

Yesterday 

I woke up to a pleasant surprise yesterday.

Gosh, I loved it. Thank you for that, it made me happy.

And just like that, you became the centre of my day.

I didn’t plan it, but I couldn’t resist it.

You’re becoming very irresistible, you have no idea.

The Memory

So, while I sat down to go through the When Time Split Between 12 Midnight and 7 A.M. post, I realised I had skipped a lovely memory. And I thought, let that one sit in this post.

One of my favourite memories, maybe the favourite.

And even as I say that, a thousand other moments start flooding back:

the look in the hallway, the look on the day I arrived late, the look across the room.

But this one was different.

Because it was the first time I saw it.

The first time you let me see you.

We ran into each other. I was in the rain, and you were in your car.

(Which, by the way, I love. It gives this bad-boy, player vibe. I don’t think I’ve told you that before. But it does. And I love it.)

There I was, holding my jacket over my head.

And the way you looked at me,  like you were really enjoying what you saw. Gosh, you made me so shy.

But I loved it.

Because it was the first time you allowed yourself to look.

Or maybe, the first time you allowed me to see.

That’s the difference, isn’t it?

It wasn’t the first time you were looking; it was the first time I was seeing.

And that moment… that was everything.

So yes, that one stays here. My favourite.

The Quote

Now, to the quote.

I’m glad you were able to retrieve it.

Why don’t we share it with everyone?

“Make it obvious, or don’t.”

I wanted to tell you how I came up with it, because I don’t think you know.

At the time I wrote Even When Apart, I hadn’t chosen a quote yet. There were so many, you know, I create and I also collect them.

Then I opened one of my books and there it was: Make it obvious, or don’t.

I don’t know if you looked through the book.

Or if you caught the scent of the perfume I left on its pages, just so you’d feel like I was there, even though I couldn’t be.

Maybe you saw the little scribbles, the notes in the margins, my own interpretations of what the author meant.

That’s how I read: I write inside the book, leave traces of my thoughts, my translations.

And that’s how I found the quote.

The Meaning

So today, I’ll be thinking about what it means to make things obvious or not.

And I hope, wherever you are, you’re thinking about it too.

written by Abii

To find out how it all started, click the Link. How to stay in love when apart.

Day 1, When Time Split Between 12 Midnight and 7 A.M.