For the readers’ sake,
I won’t paint a perfect picture.
We have had defining moments too
And one of them was the day I was so mad at you.
It’s the first time I’m telling you.
I want to recall that fight.
I was the one doing the fighting,
Though I’m not sure you noticed.
I pulled back.
Stopped completely.
Because of something you said.
At first, I didn’t understand why.
Or maybe… I did.
You didn’t understand what you were feeling,
And it scared you.
So you said something that hurt me.
I tried not to hold on.
But it took two months
Two months of distance
To realize that what I felt for you
Ran deeper than I thought.
I had to sit in the hurt,
Replay the moment
Over and over
Until it finally made sense.
I could have walked away
After the words you chose,
But I stayed.
I challenged you
Because I understood why.
I know you didn’t see it coming.
You were defensive.
But I was prepared.
I wasn’t going to let you minimize what we share.
Sometimes, like today,
My mind drifts back.
Back to that day,
Back to the beauty and the pain,
Back to why you needed to call us ‘family’.
I’m not mad anymore.
Every story has its moments.
This was one of ours.
Not sure how it all started, here is the story of how it all began.
Written by Abii